First off, I would like to announce the winner of the
Candy Doll Shading Powder Giveaway! Congratulations to
Dita from Indonesia!
I have had a lot on my mind recently, with preparing for graduation in December and the weight loss that happened during my
Achalasia. I have since recovered from my surgery and am able to eat normally again, but now I have to keep off the weight! I think that has been on my mind the most, and while I want to talk it's hard for me to put it into words.
My weight has always fluctuated through the years. I remember being a size 9 by the time I was in 4th grade and being bullied for being bigger than the rest of the kids (mind you that's also the time I hit puberty). I fluctuated from a size 9 to 15 (30"-35"ish) range since then. I guess you can say I became a clothes hoarder, because I often wouldn't know what size I would be one year to the next and just kept everything I had.
I am now at a healthy size 7, which is about a 28" waist.
I recently dug through my old clothes (especially jeans) that don't fit and decided to give them away to charity:
I still haven't gone through everything, but this is just to show the general amount of clothes I needed to get rid of due to the weight loss. It is nice that I've lost the weight, but at the same time
I feel like I've lost part of myself. I sometimes feel ashamed that all the time I saved my clothes, and now I can't wear them because they're too big on me! Buying a whole new wardrobe has been a daunting task and a very expensive one. For someone who doesn't work (and not really allowed to - my dad pays for all of my college provided I do my best in school meaning I can't work), I have to rely on the monthly allowance I'm allocated for school and food. My mother has been very understanding and has been helping me through this process, but my father doesn't really understand and that hurts a lot... but what can you do?
It also makes me sad to look back on old pictures of me. Here's a comparison from a photo from 6/2010 and from 8/2012.
I believe I was at my heaviest around 2010-11, being just a bit over 200lbs. I've lost over 60lbs since last year, and want to continue on that path. I want to get to 130lbs, which isn't really that far off.
I started going to the gym this week and plan on being there 5x a week for at least an hour. I really want to get rid of the loose skin that's accumulated on my arms since I do ParaPara and it's preventing me from wearing smaller jackets! If someone knows any good exercises for getting rid of arm flab, shoot me a comment! :)
Other than going to the gym now, here's some other things I've been doing:
- Eating 5 small meals a day. Don't eat to get full, just to be satisfied.
- Make your own food! It's cheaper and you know what's in it.
- Wear heels/wedges everyday! My legs have gotten very toned just by doing that, plus I look really cute in them ;)
- When driving, park your car really far from where you want to be. It helps to get you to walk further and incidentally more exercise, especially if you're wearing heels ;)
I'm not really sure if I'll get any comments on this post or what type of comments I'll get, but anything that can help boost my confidence in this weird time or some exercise advice is very appreciated!
Thank you to everyone that decided to read this post!
